Yes, I'm going crazy. just going crazy thinking of you.
Yes, you are like a drug, so toxic, so dangerous, so damaging.
That.. i just can't seems to pull myself away..
Yes. Something about you is so addictive. I don't know what is it. 
Your smile? Your character? or just you? I don't know.

I know I've tried, tried to walk away from you, maybe not hard enough.
Tried to walk away from your concerns, your messages, and it is getting harder.
As much as I know how wrong this is, I want it. I want it so much so I'm losing control of myself.

I'm not supposed to. I'm supposed to stay away before things happen.
But I'm not, and perhaps, part of me..want it to happen.
& I'm actually not resisting it the way I should.
What am i thinking... every brain cell in me is thinking of you. Every. Single. One.
You seems to know it. You seems to sense it.
Are you feeling the same way too? Self control?
I'm afraid, afraid I might lose it soon.
I cannot do this anymore. Tell me how to stop.
I want to see you everyday. & I mean it. Everyday.

& whats with the "喂我“ & " gaowei when you see me ?heart gao wei huh?"
What are you thinking when you said that, laughing like you enjoyed it when I turned and walked off.
Friends told me i should stay away, Well hell yes, I know I should. EASIER SAID THAN DONE!


Tell me. What to do. To kick off this drug.
It's so wrong. I'm attached. But feeling really empty with my boy.