Dear blog ,

I dunno what am I feeling now.
Lost. Confused. Mixed feelings.
I dunno how to face him.
I dunno how to talk to him.
I wan to be alone.
I wan to be alright.
But I can't.
I understand why he is selfish.
I understand his thoughts.
But I can't accept it.
I can't make myself not to be sad and disappointed.
Who understand me ?
Everyone understands him, everyone empathize with him.
But no one does to me.
Im always the selfish unreasonable one.
And im sick of it.
Someone tell me who can I talk to ?
Everyone says they know me, they understand me. But that is what I show them. That is what im willing to show.
What about that feeling deep inside?
Those hidden feelings of mine.
Who bothers to see them, who bothers to feel them.
I'm always the one at fault. The one that should understand.
But can I not ?
Can I not be rationale ?

Feeling really lost.

Carmen.

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