Ever always thinking that others are better than you ?
Ever envy others of what they possessed that you don't ?
Ever jealous of others because they can have what you can't ?
Ever hope that you can be anyone other than yourself ?
Well yes, I did. Everyone does that right ?
I get envious when I see people smarter, prettier, richer and dozens more if I must list.

At times, I simply can't see the good in me.
I have a loving boyfriend. 
I have a family who stay by me through my hardest time.
I'm healthy, alive and kicking.
I have a not so bad future in front of me.
I may not be the prettiest or the sexiest, but I know that at least, I'm attractive in my own way. I don't have to act and not be myself to attract people.
I can be who I am and still have people who love me dearly.
I should be thankful for all these isn't it?
Yes I should be, but im human too. I'll get lost living in this superficial materialistic world, where fame, beauty and wealth rules it all. I'll tend to and am prone to letting greed and jealousy devour me.
And when that happens and I realise it, I'll convince myself that
"Hey everyone is like this, what's wrong ?"
But everything is wrong, I need to overlook and stumbled my way out all these "propaganda" that everyone is exposed to and made to believe !

I have to learn to love myself more, learning to accept whoever I am.
I don't need to have fair skin to be pretty,  I can be tan and still look good as long as I feel good about myself.
I don't need to have many friends around me like those "pop" girls. I only need that few friends who never left and will never leave.
I need to know that i may not mean anything to an individual,  but I may mean the world and much more to someone else :)

I don't need to have big eyes, sharp nose and a straight white shiny set of teeth to be beautiful, and while I possessed NONE of these, I'm still beautiful in my own way.
I am me, and I did a great job in being me !
Cause at the end of the day, who will know and love me more than myself ? :)
And lastly,

People whom you think are perfect and whom you aspire to be, may not be happy to be them. And who knows that while you are busy wishing that you can be pretty like her , or rich like him, someone else may be secretly hoping that they can be you!!

THEREFORE, I'LL BE PROUD TO BE ME AND NOT KEEP TRYING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE.

Love,
Me